3 three down and 95 to go

Here I sit at the end of day 3 feeling slightly hungry, but am I really or just bored? TV stinks most of the time and I think I eat out of boredom.  Stayed within my calories although by 4pm I still had alot of my calories still left to eat.  I am addicted to garlic hummus with pretzels.  Weird craving but I could eat it all day long.  Actually had two packages today.  Did eat an orange.  I am kinda a bland, eat the same thing all the time kind of eater.  I go off the rails when I am eating out.  Not sure if its a coping mechanism or what.  I do plan to try every so hard to not blow it Saturday.  I love how I feel when I know I am on track. Decided to just do a 30 minute walk tonight.  I am a 50 year old woman and if I don't want to run, I don't have to.  Was relaxing since the hubby joined me.  I am noticing my knees pop like crazy walking down stairs....no pain....just crazy crepitus.  Also starting to notice a few aches here and there, but I am refusing to give them any attention.  Maybe aging denial.  Planning to try and get another 8 hours of sleep.  Its amazing when I do.  I really do think we would all be better off with more rest. Still really stressing about trying to stay on track Saturday.  Seems wrong not to celebrate Hannah's graduation with a margarita but I know no one else will even care if I order a Diet Coke.  I know I can do it.  There will be plenty of them in my future, just need to say no cause once I start drink then I start eating (to soak up the alcohol right?).   I can do it.  Made it 3 days and pretty sure it will show up on the scale!

Day 2 late summary

Well I ended day one with a trip to Connie's Custard.  It was Ram's birthday and he wanted the entire family to come.  It wasn't much of a temptation, since I don't really like things that sweet.  Ram got me a diet coke and I was perfectly content.  Again, no one really cares if you eat or not.  I did notice that I focused more on what was going on around me than on missing out on eating.  Felt very successful.  Went to bed later than I wanted too, but school is almost out so I didn't have to be on my A game to watch students take finals.  Got up the morning of day 2 (less than 7 hours of sleep....blah) feeling great.  Didn't even seem tired. Down a pound.  Stayed on my eating plan.  Got tons accomplished at work.  Wanted to just lay around on the couch, but knew I didn't want to not have any exercise to post on day 2.  I would be a freaking loser if I did, so I got off the couch and rode 30 minutes on the stationary bike.  We have it right to the side of our living room so we can watch TV with the family and get our exercise on.  Proud of myself.  Also trying to make an effort to not work or be on my screens later in the evening.  Decided to get in bed early to try to make the 8 hours of sleep recommended.  Trying to not use anything to help me sleep, but did last night so I could crash early.  Got a full 8 hours, but was pretty groggy this morning.  Took me almost 20 minutes to drag myself out of bed.  Dropped another pound too.  Down to 156!  Hoping to get below 150 before vacation at the end of June.  Seems doable.  Below 140 before August and stay there.  Yes, I know must of this weight loss is water, but once I watch my diet I usually have no problem dropping weight.  Big accomplishment yesterday was I ate an orange.  Not a big fruit fan......they are too sweet.  Now to kick up the fruits and veggies part.  Also, more protein.  Biggest challenge ahead is Saturday after graduation.  Why are so many life events centered around eating?  Why do we always celebrate with food?   It is programed into us from a young age.  Food shouldn't be a reward.  It is just a needed to live and fuel our bodies.  Why not celebrate with fun things that are good for us....like massages, trips, or dancing?  Seems we need something to do with ourselves and also many of us need social lubrication because we are uncomfortable talking to each other. Putting yourself out there was already hard enough and now our screens have blocked us from connecting with each other.  Woah....how did I get on that rant?  Well bottom line is that we celebrate with eating and maybe we should focus on what or who we are celebrating more that the food and alcohol.  Dang, but eating and drinking is so pleasurable.   Ughhhhhh!!!!!!

DAY 1

"The hardest part of any journey is taking the first step" -unknown.
Well today started with a reality check....the scale.  Everyone has that weight where
they feel amazing.....for me it is below 140 (I go with the muscle weighs more that fat rule and I assume I am very muscular).   Everyone also has that weight where they know something needs to be done.  Clothes are too tight.   You feel uncomfortable.  For me that weight is 160.  150 is when I start really becoming concerned that my clothes won't fit.  I was 136 when I got married and felt amazing.
My goal is to get below 140.  So I got up after an amazing night of sleep (almost 10 hours-I was a little behind) and hit the scale.  Took everything off cause you know clothes adds 2 lbs to see what the state of the union was.  Drum roll..........158.  Not as bad as a thought.  20 lbs by Labor Day seems doable.  Exercise has never been an issue so I biked for 30 minutes at home then hit the gym on the elliptical for 20 minutes in cardio mode (its killer-only cut off once cause I could keep up with the resistance).  That is when you look around to make sure no one is watching.  Then did some weights.  I resisted the urge to scream at the ladies scrolling on their phones sitting on the equipment I wanted to use.  I don't understanding coming to the gym to sit on equipment and read your phone.  Leave it in the car people.  Sorry for the tangent.  Workout done.  Nutrition was in range today.....ate 1297 calories with still having an extra 400 calories if I want to chew my arm off later this weekend.  Pretty easy to stick to my diet.  Did try to eat more protein.  Not so successful with fruits and veggies.  I did drink a V-8 so that should count for something.  Biggest obstacle on the horizon is graduation Saturday.  Lupes, RJ Goodies cake, and grad parties.  Planning to get up early Saturday and do a long run.....just in case I cave at Lupes.  One thing I have noticed at social events......no one cares what you eat or drink.....just yourself.  We will see what happens Saturday.  Took myself to the pool for some UV therapy.  Memorial day for me has always marked the start of summer and there has always been something very relaxing and pleasurable about baking like a turkey by the water.  I was not super excited about my swim dress this year.  Yes it was great coverage, but I felt like a grandma in it.  I vow to get a better looking suit by July and the bikini by Labor day.  Closed out my fitness pal diary by 5pm so that signal I am done for today......let's hope that is true.

My 50th Summer....aka 98 days to whip myself into kick @%#@@%%*)^ shape!

Tomorrow, tomorrow, I'll loose weight tomorrow......
Always seems like I'm saying that.  Well, now that I am half a century old, I realize that I am over
half done with tomorrows.  Only thing that has saved me over the years is that I am super active and actually love to exercise and sweat. I also love to eat, especially salty things.  Chips is my kryptonite.
I thought my being accountable to this blog, regardless of readership, will keep me on track.  Having to confess, record, and type this blog will help keep my hands of out of pantry.  For the past 21 years, my primary focus has been my family.  Being a wife, raising kids, job, etc I have allowed life to dictate my focus.  Also, I have used the previously mentioned to be my excuses for overeating, mindless eating, and not caring for myself.  So, for the next  98 days....Memorial Day to Labor Day.....I am becoming a health and fitness maniac.  There I said it......I will eat healthy, (except coffee and Diet Coke-let's keep it real) people.  I will exercise DAILY!  I will drink all my water.  This one is hard......I will not drink ANY alcohol....for 98 days (that's all I can commit to).  This will be very hard with a graduation Lupe's trip coming up, lakation, and Memphis.  I will celebrate though at Wadbash 2018....so be ready people.  I will eat fruits and veggies and record everything....the good the bad....the success.....and failures.  I will shed at least 20lbs and tone up my jiggly areas.  Saying it is the first step.  Any of you want to join me for 98 days, please do.  I am on my fitness pal and will blog as much as I can.  Hoping to get back to a size 8 of even a 6 (everyone needs a dream right).  I will be in a bikini at Burger's pasty white tummy and all.  Well maybe I will use the rub on tan so I may be a little orange.  98 days.....14 weeks....3 months not much to sacrifice to get where I want to be.  I am having a Jillvolution!  Tomorrow......weigh in day......yes I will put actual numbers here......be very afraid.